Anyone who has ever read this blog more than once knows that I’m a planner. I have blog posts already scheduled out for months ahead. That is not to say that the calendar is full: I simply have certain blogs that are date specific or are spread out so I don’t cover the same topic too often. Yup, I’m weird like that.
Well, it has turned out that for the last couple weeks, I’ve been writing to deadline, which is not my favorite method of blog post creation. Although it can feel like I’m drowning in all these prepared posts, I haven’t had a single one that I could move up for one reason or another. In rereading these recent posts, I’ve noticed an underlying sense of sadness in them that I didn’t even realize I was feeling. I guess I’m not taking the limbo nature of my current employment status as well as I thought I was.
But, I don’t think I could pull off an edgy blogger image even if I wanted to, so now for the lighter side. (Of course the last time I set out to write a light-hearted post it morphed into a post about death.)
Victor: If you could have dinner with anyone – dead or alive – who would you pick?
me: I guess I’d probably pick “alive”.
Victor: That’s…actually a good choice.
That is so how my mind works, too. It’s the unexpectedness of it that kills me!
By following a thin trail of mental breadcrumbs, this reminded me of a trip I took with Ma and Tom when I was in the sixth grade. We went back to see my grandma and grandpa in Alabama. On the flight out, Ma and Tom filled out fun surveys with a long list of questions. First they filled them out for themselves, and then they tried to guess each other’s answers. One answer has forever stuck in my memory. The question was what did Ma want to be when she grew up. Her answer: Stacked. I still laugh at that. It’s funny that that line and going to see a “castle” created by a monk whose construction media consisted only of toilet balls and concrete are all that I remember from that trip.
Am I alone in sensing a darker mood in some of my more recent posts? or Fellow bloggers, where do you go for inspiration?