Although we are never given a manual for how to live our lives, there are a few mile posts out there that “they” believe we should do, thereby giving us access to the “grown up” club. Many were obviously not for me, and I am glad I skipped them. Still, I’ve put in my time to check off a fair number of items from the list over the course of my life: I went to college; I own my own home; I’m in a committed relationship; and I’ve been fortunate enough to be in my current job for five years. Yet I’m left with a feeling of, “Is this all?”.
I’m finding myself at this crossroads as I suddenly have a great deal of free time. This is something unheard of for me up until this year when an injury put a hasty end to my former passion. Rather than having each day blend into the next, I want to DO something. But what? My life could go in any direction.
I end up in these situations every few years. I’ve handled them differently each time:
- 5 years ago I switched careers to my current job with a company that I love
- 5 years before that, I up and moved to England on a tourist visa with the intent to start my life over there.
I don’t know that I want something as drastic as that now, yet I crave direction … and purpose! I feel like Tom Hank’s character at the end of Cast Away where he is literally standing at a crossroads. While it is liberating to know I could do anything, the fact that I could do anything is daunting. There are so many choices. How do I decide?
I’m starting this blog because I know that I can’t be alone in wondering “now what?”. Anyone else feeling a little lost and ungrounded? Anyone been at this point, made a choice, and now is happily on the other side of the abyss?